"Forever always seems to be around when it begins ...

...but forever never seems to be around when it ends"

So, why, when you finally achieve some sort of happiness in your life, does something always happen to take it away? I’m not too sure just yet. I am a strong believer in "Everything happens for a reason," but it still doesn’t make situations any better.

I’m not saying that having a boyfriend is the happiest part of my life, but it is a large part. He’s the one person I know I can talk to, or see, when I’ve had a bad day, or when I’m not in a good mood, and he can make everything better, just with a smile or a hug.

The way I love isn’t unlike a lot of people I know. I don’t half-ass love. When I find someone, I jump right in. I’ve found that’s the only way to do it. For me, it’s all or nothing. I think that scares people. I’m not saying that every guy I date or up in a relationship with I want to marry, but when I fall in love, I fall hard. I wouldn’t have it any other way, but when that love ends, I fall just as hard out of love as I do in.


On another note, kind of, I went tanning yesterday before I went to my sister’s for my dad’s birthday. Wow, yea, I’m red. My backside is mostly red, the rest of me is still sensitive. So, sitting all day at work kind of really sucks. Not to mention (again) I hate my job to begin with.

All in all yesterday was okay. My sister and her fiancée are the only ones who know about the breakup. I really want things to work out between us, and if were up to me I wouldn’t be where I am now. Unfortunately, I don’t have a choice. I’m putting off telling my parents. I don’t know if that’s a good idea or not.

So, my sister’s new project is to find me a nice guy. She's going to take me to get a manicure, go tanning and hit the "high class" bars and such. The thing is, I’m not the kind of person who is attracted to guys just because they have money. I like guys with personality, ambition, and drive. Guys who work hard for everything they have, even if it’s not much. Sure dating a guy with money is nice and all, but I’ve realized that material things aren’t the important things in life or relationships. Now, don't get me wrong, she's not all into that either. She just wants to see me happy, and doesn't want me to deal with the type of guys at the bars we usually go to. Not that they're bad .. just not always the best type of guys hanging around.

Either way, this should be interesting.