I think I’ve realized why I really don’t like my job anymore. Ever since I got a new supervisor, it all went down hill. But I realized that, like with any relationship, if you don’t get feedback, especially positive feedback, you just stop caring. With negative feedback, you can at least leave the situation and know what happened and why you left. When you get positive feedback, things are good and you feel so much better about what you are doing.
How are you supposed to enjoy what you do when your supervisor can’t take 5 minutes out of his day to see how you am doing, but has plenty of time to talk to the rest of the group.
I don’t think it is too much effort to, as he passes by, to come over and say "Hey how are you doing today? Are things going well? Is there anything you need to talk about?" I mean, imho, I think that would be the ideal thing to do. Maybe it’s asking too much, or maybe upper management just needs training in working with their employees.
"Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections."
I noticed this quote on someones email and I thought it was so awesome. These are definitely great words to live by. Happiness is only what you make of it.
Okay, try #3 .. this posting thing sucks! If i try to scroll up to high, my whole post gets erased!!!! arg! Okay .. so here we go again! :(
I am so thankful for all that I have in my life. For my friends who love and care about me, for my family and for all that I have accomplished. I feel very fortunate for the opportunities that I have had in the past. I have gone to college and had some education. I just recently was able to move out of my parents’ house and in with my best friend, Andrea. I’ve lived very well off, and been basically given all that I need. Now, granted that’s not always what I want, but I’m not complaining. For all of these things, and more, I am very happy with how my life is right now. Of course, there is always room for improvement, and I’m always willing to improve and make myself a better person. And sometimes all I need is someone to remind me of this.
I’ve been in a rut the past few months, maybe even the past year. I haven’t been able to figure out what I want to do with school. I have tried many areas of study, and none of them turn out to be what I’m looking for. Which isn’t all that bad, I just feel unproductive. Most of my friends have either graduated or have figured out where their life is heading, educationally. They have made goals and are accomplishing them at astounding rates. I feel very fortunate to be around such goal-orientated people because I know that seeing them achieve their goals will push me harder towards making and achieving mine. They also help me to get motivated to continue my education. They make me realize that is important, and that I should do what I must to figure out what will make me happy. The main thing I am realizing right now is that having a good education in an area of study you enjoy will be very fulfilling, especially if you land a career that will take that further.
Now, the job I have now, notice that I say job and not career, I am quite unhappy at. I used to love it, but after a while, it got monotonous and very unfulfilling. The other issue I have is with upper management. Now, most employers are like this, where the upper management sucks. Because of my car accident in January, I’ve had to take more than my share of days off, due to headaches, which I never got before, and back pain, which I’m still getting used to living with. Instead of giving me a verbal warning, which would be the correct way to solve this problem, they skipped right to a written one. Now I’m on probation, meaning no days off (which is fine, I know I’m guilty of that, but hey there’s only so much I can do), working from 8-4:30 (yuck! Traffic sucks), and blah blah blah for 3 months.
Before this even came about I was unhappy, so I decided a few months ago to start getting my resume out. I have had a few people contact me, and today after work I’ll be meeting with someone from a temp agency. The only problem is that it’s a temp agency, meaning they could ‘fire’ me at any time. Unfortunately rent, car payment, and car insurance do not pay themselves. I need a steady job. But I think right now, I’ll take what I can get. I’m not going to say that anything would be better than this place, cause it’s not that horrible, but I’m definitely keeping my options open.
As my closing comment, I’d like to thank everyone: my family, my friends, and my boyfriend most of all, for helping me achieve my goals, for pushing and motivating me to be a better person, for making me want to achieve my goals, and not for their own benefit, but for mine. I know some of the people I know are just ‘passing by’ and others are here to stay. That doesn’t matter to me. I love you all, and I don’t know what I would do without your love and support. Thanks for kicking me and getting my butt back in gear!
So I've decided today to make an important change in my life. Something that I've been meaning to do for a while. I've decided to go back to the gym. I stopped going in Jaunary when I was in another car accident (#3). I've also decided to change my eating habits. It's not like I ate poorly before, it just isn't as healthy as I'd like. So, I'm drinking a lot of water and no junk food, fast food, and a limit to my alcohol, which means I'll most likely be DD from now on.
I'm really looking forward to this because it will take up some of my free time, which I have tons of, and it will help me be in a better, more positive mood. I noticed this before I stopped going. I was always in a good mood, got plenty of rest, had a positive outlook on life. It was great! I felt on top of the world!
But lately I haven't been so positive. I've been moody and grumpy, and I feel so horribly because the one who has been feeling my wrath is my boyfriend. He is the most wonderful, loving, caring, awesome, responsible, motivated, intelligent, handsome man in the world. He's been under so much stress because it's the end of the semester and, him being an engineer, all he's been doing are projects, studying, and homework. I have to give him so much respect for being so dedicated. Though it definitely takes a toll on me, I have been trying to remember that this is really important to him. It will all be over with in a few weeks and I'll hopefully have him all to myself all summer.
Either way, this is my goal. Get back into exercising, eat healthier, and be more positive! I'll keep this updated to make sure I keep on track!
Okay, so this is my first Blog .. guess a place where I can rant and rave and get some advice :) hope you all enjoy!