This was the scene on my way driving home yesterday. It was raining pretty hard. The traffic was pretty decent considering no one in Arizona knows how to drive in the rain. It was interesting to see the way the rain clouds just kinda stopped. After the clouds stopped there was blue skies. I was driving home thinking, "I want to be there!" Meaning I wanted to be where the blue skies were :)
Today seems nicer, but the rain usually doesn't start until around 5pm, when I leave work. We'll see.
Work is busy though and the day is 1/2 over already.
I didn't do my homework last night like I was supposed to. I hate writing papers. I played WoW instead. I was up till after 12:30. I am tired.
I need to make sure I stop off at home to get my reading stuff for school so I can read it while I am getting my pedicure with mom. Then when I get home I will have to write the paper. It's on:: Functions of Management Paper - Prepare a 700-1,050-word paper in which you define the four functions of management (planning, organizing, leading, and controlling) and explain how each function relates to your own organization.
My next paper is:: Delegation Paper - Prepare a 1,050-1,400-word paper in which you illustrate how managers in your organization delegate as part of their management responsibilities. Explain how delegation could be used more effectively in planning, organizing, leading, or controlling within your organization. Also, describe what skills are necessary for effective delegation.
I also have to cite sources and crap. School sucks. I'll take calc over english anyday.
I gotta make those steaks tonight too. They've been marinating in the fridge since Sunday. I'll have to ask someone if they are still going to be okay to eat before I cook them first. I also bought a whole lot of food from Omaha Steaks. Burgers, franks, steaks, fish, potatoes au graten and stuffed potatoes. Yummy! And we have propane again for the grill so it should be no problem.
Mmmm steak.
Ok, so my new job is awesome. Things get busy, but I don't mind it. It makes the day go by super fast. The people are great so far and really helpful too.
The thing I think I am stressing about is school. I guess I didn't think about it before getting into it, but all of these classes are going to basically be English classes. Meaning writing papers, siting sources, etc. I HATE English classes and writing papers. I am not good at it, and never have been. I hate the effort that I have to put into writing papers. But I guess it just has to be done. No matter what. I can't let myself down .. again. I can do it right? I just have to think positively.
If anyone is interested in helping me stay focused, I'd appreciate it. I have this thing where I'd rather be doing something fun than doing homework. Call me crazy ...
Anywho, I'm trying to get Ken to take me camping. I really want to get away again. And camping can be really relaxing.
Ugh I'm starting to get a headache. I need to get to the chirporactor!
Today is my 3rd day at my new job. I'm liking it so far. The commute in the mornings has only been about 20 minutes, but I think that is just because of the holiday weekend. I've been giving myself an hour to get to work everyday, just in case. But of course the drive home is another story. That takes about an hour every day. Yuck.
The job itself is cool, and the people are really nice, too.
Other than the new job, nothing else is new. 'Vacation' in Pennsylvania was okay. It was great to see the family, but more than a week there was way too long. A couple days or an extended weekend would have been just fine. Not to mention Ken bought a wireless router for my Aunt who lives next door to my Grandmother just so we can have access to the internet, and not go totally crazy.
I start my 2nd class at the University of Phoenix Online today. Ugh .. I totally forgot about it too. Guess it will be a long day!
I hate Mondays. Ok, I hate any day I have to wake up to an alarm clock and work for 8 hours.
I was going to not come in to work today, but I didn't think that was the best idea. Ok, I did think it was an awesome idea until I remembered that I had my exit interview today. I can't really miss that one, now can I? I might call in tomorrow. See, it's not so bad if I get to bed at a decent hour. I didn't get to bed until almost 1am. Though as soon as I hit the pillow I was out like a light.
I'm kind of hungry this morning. I might actually go get a breakfast burrito. We'll see. Otherwise it's a Diet Coke and a bag of chips from the vending machine.
So, Ken is finished with his finals, and all he is waiting on are his grades. He's lucky he gets to sleep in and do nothing all day (though I left a short list of things-to-do for him).
He has been such the handyman around the house as well. The shower handle ended up breaking, meaning we couldn't take a shower. So yesterday we went to Home Depot and got the part. Ken took about an hour or so and struggled trying to take everything apart. Between lime and hard water crusties, things were stuck in there pretty good. He finally got it apart and started putting the new thingy in. After a little bit of tweaking, he finally did it! We have a working shower! Horray!! He's so awesome.
So, Thursday is my last day. I wish I would have said last Friday. I would have had a whole week off. But that would have been a week off without pay. That would be bad. I am going out to lunch on Wednesday with co-workers for my going away. That should be fun.
Next week is our trip to Pennsylvania. I am SUPER excited! I can't wait to see Nana and my cousins and everyone else. It has been a while since I've seen them (ok, Ali's wedding), but it has been even longer since I have been back to Pa. I really want to make a trek into NY to get some White Castle lol
Anywho, back to work .. yay.
So yeah, I'm kind of depressed today. Last night some people said something about me that really hurt. They didn't say it to my face of course, cause that's rude. No they said it to someone else. Mostly as a general comment.
These people don't know me. They don't know who I am. They don't know my personality or how I deal with things in any kind of relationship. I try to be unbiased when talking to these people because I don't know them well either. Sure, I am guilty of making comments about them, but not when other people can hear me. I know it won't get back to them.
I don't like making people feel poorly about themselves. I have struggled with self-esteem issues for as long as I can remember. I still don't have the highest self-esteem, but I have to say it has gotten better.
This incident has hit me hard. I had a difficult time falling asleep last night because I kept thinking to myself, "Am I really like that?" I don't want to be "one of those people" so it's really bothering me that they said that.
I don't know if "they" is one person or more than one, but it doesn't really matter. The thing is, you would think that they would be smart enough not to make a comment about me when there is a possibility that it can get back to me. What kind of person does that? Not someone that I want to associate with, honestly.
I tend to stay away from people who are destructive towards me. Insults are destructive. I'm debating on what to do. I know I won't be able to single out this person, because I will have no way of finding out who actually said it. I am not going to make this into a big issue, because, again, I will be "that guy."
All I ask for is a little respect. Is that so wrong? I think that I go out of my way sometimes to show respect to other people. There are instances where I cannot control the situation. What am I to do then? *shrug* I have no idea.
I know I have a habit of over-reacting, though I have been working on that. Really I have. Change comes with time, it is not always instantaneous. I am an emotional person. I am trying to deal with this by myself because if I say anything, I'll just be over-reacting ... Whatever.
Ok, see? Now I am starting to get bitter. Not good. Ok, back to the point at hand.
Am I going overboard? I don't think so. But no one tells me otherwise. Sigh. I guess we will see what happens.
So yesterday morning I was debating on whether or not to actually go to work. So, of course I said to hell with it and didn't show up. It was the start of the 4-10hr days and my day off is Monday. I wasn't sure if taking the day off would be worth working 4 10 hour days. I'll see how it goes I guess.
I'm super tired this morning. Ken was up late working on a project and decided to start printing his 15 page paper at some god-awful hour (it could have been midnight for all I know). So it woke me up and I was grumpy. I hate having interrupted sleep. This was the second night in a row! Monday morning at around 2am Kens' roommate decided to jump over the couch to get to the fridge and ended up hitting his head on the air duct and busting it open. Ew. So that interrupted my sleep that night because after hitting his head he made a big loud thump as he hit the floor.
I just want to sleep!!! I didn't even play wow last night because I wanted to get to bed early because I knew I had to wake up early this morning to work for 10 hours.
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