Yesterday I went with Andrea to the Community College to get our ID’s and Parking stickers. It was interesting. I’ve never been there before, and it’s not so big so I don’t think that I’ll get lost. I also picked up 2 books .. $140 later (damn!). But it doesn’t matter cause I am really excited about starting! I’m going to start reading through the Int Des and Java books to see what the deal is. Andrea was too funny taking pictures. And the guy there was so totally flirting! (either that or he was laughing at the fact I was wearing pig-tails .. not too sure) Then Andrea had some errands to run so I just kind of tagged along. We went to the car wash and an ext wash was only $3. That’s pretty cheap and it cleaned really well. A lot better than those ones at the gas stations.
I’m kind of liking the fact that I don’t have anything to bitch about right now. My posts are a lot shorter and I don’t feel as aggravated and stressed. I’m happy!
Oh and so since I’ve been doing so well at work, like showing up on time and working hard (kind of), my boss said I can work OT. They have a lot of backed up work and they need it done, so I’m gonna be working OT so I can get some extra cash and stuff. I need to start paying off my credit card. Too much shopping lol.
So .. back to work!
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Man I love Gwen.
Nothing much is new .. but I felt the need to still write something.
At work I've been helping to process AP invoices on a different system .. it's been kinda cool. It's the system I'll be eventually working on when they convert the system I work on. It's much easier to use, except right now it's slow as hell cause of people working on it and how many invoices are on the system (20,000+ and thats a lot).
For some reason, things have been going really well and I've been so optimistic lately. I'm not sure why, but I like it! Work isn't as horrible as I thought. I mean, going to work every day really sucks, but it's a part of life. Some switch inside of me flipped and I feel so .. peaceful and calm.
So Star Wars is coming out next week. I'm really excited about going. A whole bunch of my gamer friends are going the weekend after it comes out, so I'll probably go with them, unless someone else asks me to go instead. Or hell, we can all go together! It should be a good time, and hey, I like Star Wars!
Another thing I've been enjoying is going tanning. At first it kind of sucked cause I burned a bit, but it wasn't unbareable. So I think I should be good to go for longer. I'm going to go after work today, and try to get in there before Sunday a couple more times because that's when my unlimited tanning for 2-weeks ends. I might get another one, depending on how the tan looks.
I think going tanning has kind of boosted my self-esteem a bit. It makes me feel better about how I look, and aside from maybe loosing a few pounds, I'm really happy about how I look. The next thing I'm going to look into doing something with is my hair, but that will have to wait till after my sisters' wedding.
Anyways, I should get back to work.
So my weekend went really well. Friday night I stayed over at Ken’s, and I’m still really confused as to what’s going on with him. He can’t seem to make up his mind. Saturday I went scrapbooking with my two roommates, which was a ton of fun. I love making memories and preserving them! Sunday, Mother’s Day, I went over to my parents’ house. That was nice. We ordered Chinese food, and had cheesecake for dessert (mmm, cheesecake). We also celebrated my sisters’ and my future brother-in-law’s birthdays, since they’re both in May. Family is nice, but only for short amounts of time. 4 hours is definitely enough of time!
I really don’t have much else to write about, so I’ll leave it at that. Short and simple.
I think the thing that's bugging me the most in my life right now is my job, or work in general. Now not many people actually like, let alone love, their job. I don't like using hate since it's a very strong emotion, so I'll just say I really dislike my job. For the time being, it's paying bills, so I'm dealing with it. I'm in the process of trying to find a new one, but, of course, the job market out here sucks big time.
The one thing I've been trying to figure out is whether it's the jobs I get or just upper management in general that I can't deal with. Upper management also being anyone with a certain amount of power: teachers, parents, bosses, etc. I don't know if I can't deal with people with that power, or if it's just the environment that I work.
I haven't had a job for more than a year, give or take a few months. Well, that is, other than my first job which was a joke. It was very simple, I was working p/t and with a bunch of people I went to HS with. And my bosses didn't really give a shit about anything. With that in mind, my thoughts have been torn between the cause of either not finding a job I really enjoy or issues with upper management. It could be a little of both, but I have had jobs that I have enjoyed, mostly because my bosses were cool. But that 'liked' job was only one other time, and the only reason I left that job was because I moved from NY to AZ.
Another big thing about how much I like a job is the people I work with. Where I work now, I basically keep to myself. If I talk to one of the people in my dept. I feel like an outsider. A few of the people around me have all gone to HS together, and they're all about 3 yrs younger than I am. So they're kind of clique-y. I don't like that. So I tend to stay away from them. I don't think I come off as snotty or stuck-up, but I don't know. I talk to people when they talk to me, and we have nice conversations, but I've never actually 'hung out' with anyone here. I usually just keep to myself, try to keep my concentration on getting my work done, no matter how boring it is.
I know that eventually I'm going to find a place I really enjoy, though it might not be till after I graduate and get myself started on my career, but even that's not guaranteed. I suppose I'll just try to stay positive in this whole situation. I'm sure something good will come out of it!
Topic #1:
I don’t like debates. I get flustered quite easily trying to prove my point. So, I tend not to argue with people about things like religion, politics, guns, or basically any hot button issue. I have my own views that are weighted by other people opinions. I don’t take sides between conservative or liberal. I take in both arguments and make note of the topics I agree with. I like being somewhere in the middle with my views. I like being open about different perspectives.
Topic #2:
I know I come off sometimes as judgmental about people, but I will always give them a chance to speak their mind. I make comments on how people act or dress because it is usually out of the norm. Basically, the way I see it is, they’re getting the reaction they were looking for. Mostly it’s younger people who I comment on, but I’m sure when I was in HS people commented on the way I dressed, or looked, or acted when I was around my friends. But I have grown up since then, so when I see how High School students’ wardrobes have evolved, I can’t help but think to myself (and sometimes aloud), "What the hell are they thinking?" I really try not to judge people on how they look, but on how their mind works. Once I get to know people, whether it’s for 5 minutes, 5 months or 5 years, then I will decide how I feel about them. And hopefully it doesn’t take 5 years before I know someone.
I’m so excited. I finally made up my schedule for the Summer I and Fall sessions at the community college. I’m going to be taking a Summer II class as well, but I haven’t registered for it yet. Anywho, for those who are interested my schedule is as follows:
Summer I –
INT105 – Introduction To Interior Design – M W – 07:10PM
CIS163AA – Java Programming – Tu Th – 06:00PM
Fall –
CIS120DF – Macromedia Flash Player – M – 05:20PM
CIS120DC – Adobe Photoshop – T – 07:10PM
I’ll keep this updated if I add more classes. I can’t wait for the summer!
...but forever never seems to be around when it ends"
So, why, when you finally achieve some sort of happiness in your life, does something always happen to take it away? I’m not too sure just yet. I am a strong believer in "Everything happens for a reason," but it still doesn’t make situations any better.
I’m not saying that having a boyfriend is the happiest part of my life, but it is a large part. He’s the one person I know I can talk to, or see, when I’ve had a bad day, or when I’m not in a good mood, and he can make everything better, just with a smile or a hug.
The way I love isn’t unlike a lot of people I know. I don’t half-ass love. When I find someone, I jump right in. I’ve found that’s the only way to do it. For me, it’s all or nothing. I think that scares people. I’m not saying that every guy I date or up in a relationship with I want to marry, but when I fall in love, I fall hard. I wouldn’t have it any other way, but when that love ends, I fall just as hard out of love as I do in.
On another note, kind of, I went tanning yesterday before I went to my sister’s for my dad’s birthday. Wow, yea, I’m red. My backside is mostly red, the rest of me is still sensitive. So, sitting all day at work kind of really sucks. Not to mention (again) I hate my job to begin with.
All in all yesterday was okay. My sister and her fiancée are the only ones who know about the breakup. I really want things to work out between us, and if were up to me I wouldn’t be where I am now. Unfortunately, I don’t have a choice. I’m putting off telling my parents. I don’t know if that’s a good idea or not.
So, my sister’s new project is to find me a nice guy. She's going to take me to get a manicure, go tanning and hit the "high class" bars and such. The thing is, I’m not the kind of person who is attracted to guys just because they have money. I like guys with personality, ambition, and drive. Guys who work hard for everything they have, even if it’s not much. Sure dating a guy with money is nice and all, but I’ve realized that material things aren’t the important things in life or relationships. Now, don't get me wrong, she's not all into that either. She just wants to see me happy, and doesn't want me to deal with the type of guys at the bars we usually go to. Not that they're bad .. just not always the best type of guys hanging around.
Either way, this should be interesting.