What an awesome weekend!

This was an awesome weekend! Saturday I helped out my sister make some gift baskets for her wedding (OMG it’s already Saturday!), and then went to see Star Wars: Episode 3 with a bunch of my gaming friends. It was a blast! The movie was awesome and it’s always nice to see those guys.

After I got home from the movie, I decided to call Ken and see what he was up to, cause, well, I’m always up for seeing him. A couple people were just chilling over at his place talking and listening to music, so he said come on over. I wasn’t about to pass this up, so I got my make-up bag and headed over.

Nicole, Adam, Jason, Mike (Ken’s new roommate) and his girl Jenny were all there sitting around drinking. There’s nothing better than a few close friends hanging out. Seriously. It’s relaxing.

So after about 2am, Adam, Nicole and Jason left to go home and it was basically just Mike, Ken and I sitting out in the living room. I hate assuming that I can stay the night, but I do, just cause I always have. I don’t like to impose, but I feel that I always do. I just hope that no one else feels that way. So I end up staying the night, which I totally love the cuddle time. I mean, what could be better than falling asleep with the one that you love holding you? I’m sure there are maybe a couple, but it all depends on who you ask.

Even better, we end up spending all of Sunday together. It’s like heaven to me. We watched a couple movies: Dune, End of Days, and the end of Star Wars: Episode 2 that was on TV. I made lunch, and he made dinner. It was really nice to just have a lazy Sunday. I haven’t had one of those in like forever! Especially spending one with Ken.

But have you ever wished that you could read someone’s mind. Really know what they were thinking, or what they were feeling. I do, but I don’t. I do because I’d rather know how someone feels, and what their expectations or intentions are, than being strung along just getting set up for being hurt again. But then again, I don’t because I don’t really want to hear anything other than what I want to hear. If the person you want doesn’t really want you. I’m trying to decide whether I’d rather be living in the moment and happy now no matter what the outcome is, or if I should just give it up because it might not work out. I have learned to grow and be optimistic about so much, but how are you supposed to know when even the optimism won’t save anything.

I don’t like giving up on things that I believe in, or things that I think I can fix, but I don’t know if "fixing" things is the solution. I guess only time will tell, and until that time, I am going to revel in the happiness I have for the time being.