Happy Birthday to me! I'm 25 today!
Some people are lucky enough to know what they want out of life. They see their goals and they do everything in their power to achieve them. I, unfortunately, haven’t found my niche.
It’s like this. People in life are like cars on a road. You have a starting point and a destination. Some people are fortunate to find the highway that leads them straight to their final destination; some people wander off the path and decide to take the scenic route. Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with choosing one path over another, it all depends on the individual. Some people like to enjoy the scenic route for a while, and then eventually head back to the highway and make their way to their destination, with no more stops on the way. And then, some people like to make their way on the scenic route, which might take them longer, but there’s much more to see along the way.
I feel like I’m stuck on this scenic route, and can’t find my way back to the highway. I’ve stopped and asked for directions, ultimately leading me to dead ends and roads that circle me back 10 miles. I’ve decided to take my road-trip into my own hands now. No more stopping to ask for directions. Just stay on course to get back to that highway, either by man-made road, a trail, or making my own path. I need to start making decisions, even if they aren’t the correct ones. All of those decisions will help me get back to my ultimate goal – my final destination.
I have started making these decisions, most of which only I know about. Some of them, I need other people’s help with, but for the most part, my devices are my own. I’m not going to tell anyone because everyone has an opinion and will give it to me whether or not I want to hear it. So, in not telling anyone, I won’t hear anything back. This is my plan, and I’m sticking to it.
Man, I don't know where the time goes, but it sure goes fast. Just like that. We were wanna be rebels ..
Posted by StephanieOh thank goodness! Mandatory OT was pushed back till the end of August. It would have totally sucked to work for 19 days straight. yuck! Either way, I have my weekends back. I'll be doing sleeping, doing laundry and cleaning my room this Saturday, hopefully. I might just end up moving my room around again. We'll see.
Karaoke last night was fun, but not as much fun as if Ken was there. He's so lively and gets everyone involved, which is totally awesome! He emits such an awesome energy that people can't help but like him! Andrea came out last night as well (Finally!!). It was a nice short evening. I was home and in bed by 11:30. Ahhh sleeeep :)
Only 4 days left! I can't wait until Tuesday! Yay!
So.. Vegas was awesome. Things worked out a lot better than I had hoped. I was debating on whether or not I was actually going to go. There were a lot of issues that I didn’t think I could deal with. All in all, the weekend was awesome. I got to hang out with my best friend, Andrea, her boyfriend and another couple. Saturday, well, I’m not going to talk about that. Man, now that I try to think about what I did each day, I can’t. Everything seems to mush into one day! Though I guess it is Vegas. Things like that do happen there. I can’t wait to go back.
I hate the week after a holiday weekend. My week, which was only 3 days, seemed like it was 10. And things at work aren’t going to get any easier. In the next 3 weeks, we have mandatory OT in effect. I like the extra money and all, but we have to work 24 hours extra! Three full 8-hour days, or four 6 hour days. I’ll be working a 7 day work week for the next 2 weeks.
I’d be able to split it up a bit better if I didn’t already have plans to go camping the last weekend in July, which is also my birthday weekend. I wouldn’t work then even if I wasn’t going away! The only bad thing is that I kind of wanted to go out out for my birthday. But I want to do the whole camping/lake thing too. Since Ken and I go back together-ish I would want him to come as well, but I’ll have to see how things work out for that weekend.
So Ken is away for like 10 days or so. He went back to the east coast to visit family and some friends. I don’t think I’ll have a problem keeping busy, since I have to work so much now, but I still feel like I’m going through withdrawal. We spent time together all last week after we got back from Vegas, which was totally awesome. I’m really happy we’re trying again. I just feel like we didn’t give things enough time to settle in. We didn’t know each other’s quirks and habits, so it was hard to try to work around each other, if that makes any sense whatsoever. We both need to slow things down and really find out who the other person is. I think things will turn out for the better :)
So back to work .. yay. Mandatory overtime my ass .. arg!
Omg! So I am totally stoked. I have interview today at 4:30 for a new job. I can't wait. I'll be working with html and ftp, so it's something totally different and I am so looking forward to it. Not to mention I'll be working with a bunch of my friends. There's also a good chance of moving up in the company.
Wish me luck!!!
So, this past weekend was totally awesome! Got to spend time with my good friends. What could be better than that?! Not to mention geeking out. Ok, to those of you that know me, you’re probably wondering how this is different than any other weekend … well, it isn’t.
So Friday night ended up meeting up with some of my friends to see Mr. And Mrs. Smith, which was a really great movie. After that, went to Lazer Quest. OMG I realized how out of shape I really am! But it was so much fun!
Saturday the guys and I went tubing on the Salt River. Ok, so this was my first time going, and listening to peoples’ horror stories, I was a little weary about going. I have no idea what people are talking about! It was very tame, except for the rocks, which REALLY HURT!!! I have bumps and bruises almost everywhere. I felt like a gimp all weekend cause I couldn’t walk. But I had a blast! I so want to do it again, which I probably will soon.
Sunday just vegged out and watched movies, then played Heroes Unlimited. That was fun.
I’m not sure if I’m going to have a good Fourth of July weekend though. Is it a bad idea to go to Vegas with your ex? Especially if he just broke up with you a couple of months ago? I’m sure the answer is a big YES, but I’m still going to. I suppose I really like getting hurt, over and over again. I can’t expect him to understand, although he should. It’s only a couple of days, and they can go either way. Could be totally awesome, or could be the worst thing I have ever done. I am so not good at making decisions, and when I do, they’re usually the wrong one. Alright, time to be positive again! Yay! Vegas, baby! Vegas!
My Intro to Interior Design teacher handed out a photocopy of this on the first day of class. I made a photocopy and hung it up at my desk at work, so I can look at it every day. The words are so true, and easy to live by. They're very obvious and most people are probably going to be like "Well, duh!", but, if you think about it, it's not as easy as it seems.
Either way, I hope you enjoy these words. These words come from a book written by Don Miguel Ruiz called The Four Agreements.
"Be Impeccable With Your Word"
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
"Don't Take Anything Personally"
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.
"Don't Make Assumptions"
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstanding, sadness, and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
"Always Do Your Best"
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgement, self-abuse, and regret.
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